当别人都在等着看好戏时，我来绕指柔的把一切玩弄于指掌间。
看着大伙儿那一副从等着看笑话到流露出无瘾的神情里，我知道我成功了。
愚蠢的人们，从你们传来的眼光，我可以想像你们在背后对我窃窃私语般地品头论足的那一副蠢样。我不是不知道，我只是习惯了。因为，我曾经也是你们的一员。
两个人之间的事，总会有一些自以为是的人爱以救世主自居，想了一堆馊主意，
看着你们自作聪明，自以为洞悉一切的所谓‘安排’，愚蠢！愚蠢的人们！无聊透顶的安排！自作聪明的人最该死！
我不是菩萨，也不是什么品德高尚的伟人。我只是一个普通人。我什么也不是，我只是个生意人。我只知道什么是识时务者为俊杰，也知道什么是平时留一线，日后好相见，更知道什么是留得青山在，不怕没柴烧。
这很难，真的很难。
特别是说服自己眼前这一切都只是戏。因为，戏子是无情的。
距离无情，我还有好多要学习。
距离不痛不痒的境界，个人修为仍待加强。
云顶的空气也没有什么特别的良好，凉意也不比墨尔本来的爽，
只是真的不明白为何大家都要选择这个地方聚会。
破了自己的纪录，八个月来我去了六次，这个月里我来了两次。
全部人都进去赌个两手了，剩我自己一个人躲在一个超级无敌烧钱的网咖无聊的打发时间。为何烧钱？请看下面：
普通吉隆坡网咖：rm1-2.5/小时
云顶烧钱王八蛋网咖：rm15/小时
妈的，价钱差了快十倍，我可以在吉隆坡玩至少五个小时了。
可是半夜十一点的云顶高原，除了回房睡觉， 最便宜的消费我看是这里了。算了，反正早上进了去赌场走了一圈，拿了个五十块出来，算是来抵消这件王八蛋黑店的无敌消费吧。
大家说我变了，改邪归正，除了走来走去，我玩也不玩。
其实不是。是开始赚钱后，变得孬种了。总觉得那二十零吉好像是大腿上的一块肉，输了就好像活生生的被切下来一样的痛 XD
十岁以前的自己，期盼能上来云顶的主题公园玩。
十六岁以前的自己，期盼能和朋友们上来玩/聚会。
十八岁以前的自己，站在赌场门外，幻想着里面的风光，是否和电影一样。
二十一岁以前的自己，期盼能偷偷溜进去，想了很多方法，最后都无疾而终。因为警察不是笨蛋。
二十二岁现在的我，每每听到要上云顶，心里不免骂了一句“靠，又是云顶=.=”
马来西亚五十一岁生日啰~！
一切尽在不言中
在此恭贺各界国泰民安，人人得以安居乐业。
民联改朝换代得以顺利进行~
生日快乐~我爱我的国家！
看到敖犬哭得那么惨，我心也揪了一下。
怎么这一切来得这么突然啊，说毕业就毕业，一点儿过渡期也没有吗？
好端端的就把整个固定班底给踢出去了，美其名是‘毕业’，现在就把整个节目给搞砸了。
没有Lollipop,公主帮，宅男塾的模范棒棒堂， 这算什么？
没有这二十一棒，节目还能看吗？难道，远在日本的monkey和加拿大的拿铁就不用给他们一个交待吗？
新底迪小乐呢？有考虑他的心情吗？他正处于一个新不新，旧不旧的尴尬情况下，Andy哥你是要他何去何从呢？
打从两年前开播至今，五百多集，五百多个日子，五百多个心情，无论那一集的主题有多白目，我都照看不误，我一集也没有漏。我看着底迪们从青涩的素人一路走来，到现在的六棒和二军，从我去澳洲一直到现在我毕业回来开始工作了，不管我在那里，不管我多晚回家，我都一定准时打开电脑搜寻最新的一集。我见证了底迪们从无到有的酸甜苦辣，这节目也陪伴我五百多个日子了，当我对这节目开始有了感情之后，制作单位就一声不响的，也不知道在赶什么，匆匆忙忙的就说要替他们‘毕业’了，然后把二十一棒都给撤了，换上了新的一批底迪！
看看小煜哭成那样，我想，这习惯要改改了。没有了二十一棒，我想我也没有那个动力了，新一季模范棒棒堂，我是不会看的了。那个曾经陪伴我过无数个日子的底迪们，没有人能够代替你们，你们在我心目中永远都是棒棒堂里的无可替代指标，加油。
底迪们都走了，堂主也为演唱会闭关准备了。两年的回忆也跟着一起走了。我也正式退堂了。
前几个星期一个多年未见的朋友告诉我说他要从苏格兰回来了,说出来喝喝咖啡见个面吧. 过后又问我住哪, 其实当时也没想那么多,就告诉了她, 当时也没注意到她听了以后露出惊讶的反应.
一直到今天要约出来时,我还笨笨的想说他家附近有哪儿好去, 问了她以后他却露出了不可置信的语气告诉我说 ‘难道你不知道我搬来你哪儿了吗?我没有告诉你吗？’
听了她说以后，反而是我的脑袋突然一片空白，犹如五雷轰顶般的反应告诉她别开玩笑了，一直到最后才知道原来是真的，好好笑，都怪我没有注意到当我告诉他我搬家了以后她那惊讶的反应。原来你真的搬来我这儿了。也难怪我这么吃惊，搬来这儿五年多了，都没遇到什么朋友搬来我这一个新地方的。
好妙，多年不见的老朋友，第一次见面竟然就告诉我说以后我们就是邻居了。
Being a paparazzi is not an easy task, especially for two consecutive days.
But well, everything went well and its worthwhile as it was my dream to catch these lads in person and actually taking photos and talk to them face to face!
Due to family gathering in Genting Highlands on 28th, was unable to attend the Ballack autograph session in Pavillion. But yeah, no worries for me as i’m still able to catch the lads in action during their 6pm training session @ Stadium Shah Alam.
Why am i able to go for the training session? It is because i got the training pass from my club for attending the closed door training session.
Quite excited to attend the training session but actually its quite a boring session. Quite a number of fans turn up, about 5000 maybe? Sitting there waiting for the player to come out and even thou they’re out, the distance were too far for me to recognize them actually. What a boring session because the players were just train among themselves. A lot of cheering and shouting when those big shots player came out from the dressing room such as Lampard, Joe Cole and the captain, John Terry.
before the training session starts
ChelseaTV screening
One of the player coming out
Chat with a few members that sitting nearby and one of them actually come out with a good idea,
Me “Do you think its possible for us to get autograph and take photos with them?”
Him “Well, Impossible is nothing (wtf stop copying the Adidas slogan), we can go their hotel and try our luck maybe?”
And yes, 5 of us ended up at The Palace of the Golden Horses where all the Chelsea squad staying.
Waited there for half an hour and yes, we do saw some player walking in and out, accompanied by a few securities, trying to stop the fans from going near the player. But yeah, who cares? As long the player is happy to entertain us, why shall the securities stops us?
Saw quite a number of players going down from the lift heading to the lounge for a drink. Even the club’s CEO were there too! Took a pic with him and there’s more to go. I’ve met the three goalkeepers Cech, Cudicini and Hilario. And also a few players such as Di Santo, Paulo Ferriera and Deco. I’ve also met Scolari the manager and Steve Clarke. Got most of their signature on my jersey. Damn excited wei, talk to them in person and shake their hands.
Standing in front the Chelsea Lounge showing off my jersey with full of signature
However, quite disappointed because I only managed to get two photos that night, one with the CEO and one with the right back, Paulo Ferriera.
With Ferriera in the hotel bar.
Ferriera was the only player that talk to me for quite some time. And yeah, he is one hell funny guy. Actually i didn’t notice that he sitting on the couch until he turn to the back and so happened i was behind, as you can see from the picture. I was waiting for Cudicini for signing my jersey and the moment he turn back, he look at me and showing me some stupid face. I called his name and he ask me not to call him Ferriera, but Ferrari.
He then continue asking am i local and telling me that he likes this place. I tell him i like him a lot and asking him not to leave Chelsea despite there’s some stiff competition for his position. He then assured me that he will stay and fight for it.
There’s one part of the conversation where he point towards Hilario that sitting beside him saying that Hilario is a gay we both actually laugh out loud while Hilario rolled his eyes. Hahaha, wtf man.
Ferriera is damn friendly i tell you, i actually asked him whether i can take picture with him and he grabbed my camera and trying to take our photo himself. I was like no no no, ask someone else to do it cause i doubt with his camera skill and he start roll his eyes like a kid lol. He passed the camera to Hilario and i actually climb up the wall and take photos with him (as you can see from the picture). The security guards was down there pulling my leg asking me to go down but heck cares about him, Ferriera wants to take photo with me, who cares about securities man?
Cudicini talked to me in Italian but how the heck i suppose to know Italian? I politely tell him that i don’t understand Italian and he talked to me in English. I asked him some sensitive question and i actually thought that he would be angry but in fact, he answered me in a well manner too. My question was “Do you mind playing as a backup man for Petr and continue to stay in the club?” His answer is “Yeah why not? I’m comfortable with the current situation i’m looking forward to play under the new manager. I’m actually stayed in England for 5 years already and i’m happy with my current life”
I’m actually glad to hear him said so because he is one of the top goalkeeper in the premier league and it would always be good for the club having a world class second feeder for every position to make sure that the reds would not stand a chance when Cech is having problem.
There’s one funny part of the story when Scolari suddenly appeared in the bar. Di Santo and Hilario were so fucking scared and run back to their room. I asked Ferriera what happened that make them scared and he told me that actually the new manager does not allow their player to come out from the room after 11pm. I was like, wtf? 11pm? Its only 11pm wor? And yeah “why are you not leaving then?”, i asked Paulo, he rolled his eyes again and say because he is buddy of Scolari because he is Portugese and Scolari was the national team coach before joining Chelsea. LOL, what a funny guy he is. And not to forget he is damn friendly!
There’s one part where i’m not really happy with one particular player which is Deco. We saw him coming out from the lift and wanted to get his signature. But he was so mean and say no to us, even though the pen and paper/jersey is right in front of him. What the heck, you’re new here and you start showing us how mean you are. Even Cech and Cudicini dare not to reject our request man! Sigh…
Hang around the hotel until 1130pm and we decided that we shall call it a day. Stay tune for next day as there would be more pics and stories!
不想说希望越高，失望越大．
只希望好好把握第一次的决赛，把曼联这种下三滥赶回英国．
唉，加油吧，不想多说．
你知道作为一个b-boy在打beat是最佳的赞美词是什么吗？
不用华丽的赘词，不用一句句的‘哦你好厉害哦’或‘真的好像哦！’
只要一句不经意的‘哦，我还以为是收音机或手机发出的声音’就够了。
我想，
我做到了。
很开心，就因为这一句不经意的话，对我就是最佳的赞美了。
If you know how hot it is here, probably you’ll shut the fuck up.
Rather than saying these shits that nobody ever give a damn.
If you know how stupid you are,
probably you should start learn how to socialize and fucking get yourself a wife.
Please, we don’t want men train, or rather, Lok-lok. Whichever fuck suits you best.
这一次，我很彻底的感觉到，神原来不曾眷顾我．
那一次次的祷告，那一次次的盼望，
原来，神把我的双手放开了．
神遗弃了我．
这一生中，我一次又一次的把我所得到的都归功于神，但是这一次，神遗弃了我．
神放弃了一直以来都在忠心耿耿追随着他的弟子。
神，你难道非得让我在一无所有和矛盾中取舍吗？
难道你非得让我在迷茫中寻找一个坎坷的路后，再讽刺的讥笑着我说其实还有更好的路在后头吗？
神
你可以再出现一次吗？
